"Favor is deceitful, and beauty is vain"

talked with irfan on the phone tonight. we talked for almost an hour, figure ourselves out, with our own business. we both got the same issue, and we both got lost in making decisions to be a defensive person or else. it's a pretty tough call for all of us to make, if you ever been in my position before. haven't actually finished with my own probs, here come uncle dick with his dilemma on handling tessy. what a cruel week for most of us...

i've read jedi's message on friendster. it's quite shocking. i cant believe he wrote that. you're right jedi, still confused in whether i should believe every word he said, or just keep it for myself and let it went by. but really, just to be frank, my heart kinda melt when i read it. thanks yah!

guess we both want the same thing, but had no power to make it happen. i suppose we still have like 5 weeks to go before we can see each other again. living in the same town doesnt guarantee intensive meetings.

i dont know what to feel. i wish i can be numb. arghhhh ... now i feel so sad x'(